Once again I have the pleasure of announcing that I am the recipient of a Blogger Award. This time it is the very prestigious Versatile Blogger Award and I was nominated by Michelle, over at Silkpurseproductions’s Blog. A big fat THANK YOU to Michelle for nominating me for the Versatile Blogger Award.
Michelle brought something to my attention with this award that far outweighs this honor…self awareness. Sometimes it’s almost inconceivable for me to believe I am writing, let alone being acknowledged. Why you ask? Well, because Sister Geraldine squashed any hope of that dream when she decided to publicly humiliate me during a 5th grade English class.
Remember 5th grade, that wonderful ugly transition year when you’re half child and half who knows what..not really a good time to be embarrassed in front of your peers. Thanks for the scars Sister.
The assignment was to write a short story. So, I wrote a fictional piece about my sister getting hit by a car and breaking her arm. Well, it must have had an impact because I started to cry towards the end. Now, this could have been nerves (which it was) or the sadness I felt for my sister in light of her pretend tragedy. Sister Geraldine didn’t know, nor did she care as I sobbed back to my desk and listened to the laughter.
Fast forward to the second assignment later in the year. I chose to go with the humorous approach and tell of an experience I had with a Seagull and a bag of Cheese Curls. The stomach pains I endured in anticipation of getting back up there … Dear God! As I was heading up to the front of the room, Daniel McDevitt looked right at me with a huge grin and said “are you gonna cry again?” Sister Geraldine heard him say it and she laughed! No Jesus like comforting for the less fortunate in that classroom…my expectations along with my self-esteem vanished in that moment. That ended any growth in my writing and public speaking skills. I proudly accepted an “F” on every assignment that involved an Oral Presentation for the rest of my academic career.
“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have!”
About 5 years ago I was forced into the uncharted public speaking waters in response to corruption at the school (yes, school) my children were attending. Aside from the misappropriation of funds, there were educational decisions being made that had a direct effect on my daughter. That story is for another day.
Sometimes life has a different plan and this was certainly one of those game changing moments. In an instant I went from being afraid to speak publicly, to being dubbed a Whistle Blower on the front page of The Philadelphia Inquirer. I guess that defines Versatile…Wow.
grizzly bear loving mother was forced to speak publicly in defense of her child and the other children effected by this corruption. It started with a public Board Meeting and ending with testimony in a Federal Courtroom. The fears and doubts loomed over me throughout the entire process.
My sister guided me through the speech writing process as my writing life-preserver, until she got “busy.” It was time to let go and her schedule forced me to make that decision. That journey lasted 3 years and it was single-handedly the best thing that could have happened. My children forced me to face my fears, I let go of the life-preserver and guess what….I survived.
Childhood scars certainly run deep, but they can be healed …. after 37 years of silence, I am happy to be sharing my thoughts, humbled by the responses I receive and beyond honored to be recognized by such a talented group of people in this Community of Bloggers. I still have my doubts when I push the “Publish” button, but it’s getting easier by the blog. Let go and always….Enjoy the Ride!
If you are nominated, you’ve been awarded the Versatile Blogger award.
• Thank the person who gave you this award. That’s common courtesy. (Done)
• Include a link to their blog. That’s also common courtesy — if you can figure out how to do it. (Done)
• Next, select 15 blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly. (Done)
• Nominate those 15 bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award — you might include a link to this site.
• Finally, tell the person who nominated you 7 things about yourself.
Here are the 15 Bloggers I nominate for the Versatile Blogger Award. Their work exceeds my expectation EVERY DAY!